Saturday, June 28

A Little Bit More

So I posted last night... But I figured I would post a little bit more.

This week has been so good. It was hard... so hard. Only a few times did I feel like I was going to shrivel up and die, though. That involved Lost and Found. I hate lost and found. I'm sorry, I try to be happy about it... But I just want to throw it all away. So this mom called me about the 40 year old Bible her son had left at camp... We can't find the Bible. I was so stressed, and she was upset. boo. Then a Castle Rock mom called me asking to find her daughter's goggles before they left for vacation the next day. I wanted to be like, "I will gladly let you in the Towers gates if you want to search through the 70000 pairs of goggles left every week." I was seriously freaking out. It was the last straw. I almost had to borrow our program director's place of zen. But then I found them. It was like a beam of light from Heaven was shining down on me. hah. The weight of stress was lifted off my shoulders and I didn't feel the need to crash into that zenful place.

In this time of craziness, I was reminded that I need to rest in God's peace. This past week was stressful, and I couldn't do it on my own. Day after day I go to bed aching and exhausted. And every morning, at 6:16, I wake up refreshed. Through Christ alone. I'm sure I could make it on my own. But I would die. Seriously. I have to constantly remind myself that my life is not about me and my job is not about me and through my weaknesses, my God shows up in mighty ways.

So yeah, I am SO tired right now. Sitting in Dairy Queen falling asleep.

Before the throne of God above
I have a strong and perfect plea
A Great High Priest whose name is Love
Who ever lives and pleads for me

When Satan tempts me to despair and tells me
of the guilt within Upward I look and see Him there,
Who made an end to all my sin

Because a sinless Savior died, my sinful soul is counted free
For God the Just is satisfied to look on Him and pardon me

Behold Him there, the Risen Lamb, my perfect spotless Righteousness
The great unchangeable I AM, the King of Glory and of Grace

My name is graven on His hands
My name is written on His heart
I know that while in Heaven, He stands
No tongue can bid me thence depart

One with Himself I cannot die
My soul is purchased with His blood
My life is hid with Christ on high
With Christ my Savior and my God

(Before The Throne of God-- Charitie Bancroft)

Friday, June 27

Week four-- coming to a close

Well I am going to post some today and then some tomorrow!!

I am on my in town night off... I just got done eating at Julian's with the Castle Rock peeps. I sat at a table with all guys and it was HYSTERICAL.

This week has been ROUGH. Our secretary is on a cruise in the Mediterranean. So I have been helping by filling in where I can. I am SO tired. Yesterday, I was in the office by myself doing paper work for 30 minutes, the phone rang, and I forgot how to answer it.

On Sunday I had to go to the nurse bc my stomach was hurting so bad. I laid on the bed and drank Gatorade for an hour... But only because the health assistants had forgotten about me. hah. I ended up going to bed early because I couldn't even stand up straight.

Tuesday, I got to take a little girl to DirectCare around 7 pm... she had a 102.2 fever... or in her words, a 122.2 fever. That's what she kept telling the nurses. They sent me to the emergency room with her, to "rule out appendicitis." I was FREAKING out! My boss met us half way and I followed him to the hospital. This little girl was in the crib, so fresh out of first grade... She was precious. But she did NOT want them to take her blood. She screamed and cried and flailed her arms around... I had to hold her hand in one hand and then hold her down with the other. It was SO sad, I was almost in tears. Then the nurse missed the vein, so we had to do it all over again with the other arm. I was so so so sad. Tears were just streaming down her face. Her mom finally got there so I drove back to camp. Turns out she was perfectly fine, but she still went home with her mom... but she's coming back next week! I'm so stoked...
Here is a great quote from that night:
Preface-- she lives around a lot of Mormons...

Me: Do yall have starbucks where yall live?
Her: Yes, we do... We have a lot of starbucks because Mormons have a lot of kids.

haha yessss.

Here is a question I got asked today... Chew on it till next time: Is true love complicated or simple?


Sunday, June 22

The crib, mud, and fergie

This week was way interesting.
Here are some highlights:
* I took my in-camp night off with the Castle Rock staff and went to my boss's house... it was fun to get to know them better
* I did uber amounts of lost and found... sort, wash, dry, inventory... It took all week. One time, a kid had thrown up all in her bed so we had to wash her sheets, and I was transfering the sheets from the washer to the dryer, and the sheet definitely still had chunky, now colorless puke all over it. awesome.
* I sat on the porch and did cedar medallions with another staffer while it was raining and had some great conversation. I love good convos.
* Lacey got pink eye and I got to stay with her cribsters(youngest cabin--just finished 1st grade) from club thursday night till lunch on Friday. And we won the spirit stick. whoop. And we french braided our hair and had a bed time story and listened to David Crowder and played "Would you rather?" And we were one point away from winning Pit n Palace... but Featherstone 1 was just too good... :)
* I got to have 2 one-on-ones with 2 of the most precious 7 year olds in the world. One of them informed me that her favorite person who sings was Fergie, and then she proceeded to sing fergalicious for me. every. single. word.
* I got to play buffalo hunt!! yeahh!! I'll add a pic just so yall can understand what that is:

* I got to go to camper share and hold 2 of those 7 year olds in my lap... and then help them get ready for bed and kill spiders for them.

God had really been teaching me to act in faith. I have trust issues when it comes to giving Him my life. Our program director's Club talk was on fear, and earlier, before the talk, he and I were talking about fear and different types of fear, etc. Fear is something that Satan really attacks me with, and this week I really felt convicted about trusting Him with every aspect of my life, present and future. I was telling little girls that they should speak with confidence about the fact that God has saved them, but I struggle with doing that myself!!

Overall, it was a muy bueno week. I hope all of yall are doing well!! Send me mail!!

The song of blessings this week:

I'm giving You my heart, all that is within
I lay it all down for the sake of You, my King

I'm giving You my dreams, laying down my rights
I'm giving up my pride for the promise of new life

And I surrender all to You, all to You

I'm singing You this song, I'm waiting at the cross
All the world holds dear, I count it all as loss

For the sake of knowing You, for the glory of Your name
To know the lasting joy, even sharing in Your pain

(Surrender-- Vineyard)

Saturday, June 14

Done with week 2... I must say, this week was a little more chaotic than the last... we had 262 overnighters, plus 160 Heights and Castle Rock day campers... yeahhh.

Tuesday, I got to take my first sicko to the doctor... it was actually the camp secretary. haha. It took so so so long... we were in town for 4 and a half hours... from 5:30 pm till 10:00... it was awful.  I also drove a total of 5o miles in that trip.  She had strep and I was exhausted.  The pharmacist didn't speak english.  It was not a pretty sight. haha. 

So during her 24 hours of quarantine I took care of some of the stuff she did, plus my own "duties".  On Wednesdays, the kids go to bed by 10, and it's glorious. So I was really looking forward to this time... and around 9 pm, right when Club was over and the speaker was praying to close, my boss came and kicked me to tell me I had to take a camper to the emergency room. So I got to take a little 7 year old to the ER, and it was probably the highlight of my week.  The first few minutes were scary, bc I didn't know exactly what was wrong with her, and she was sobbing for her mom, who was, at the time, on vacation in Colorado. But she calmed down and for three hours we got to hang out... By the time we got there, her fever had broken and she was fine, but it was very worth it.  She made my week... Here's a sample of our convo:

me: Who is your favorite character in the Bible?
her: Job
me: Really, why?  
her: Because he's my ancestor, and not everyone gets to have their ancestors in the Bible... It's so cool!! And he's my ancestor on my dad's side...
me: woooowww...

haha I didn't really know what to say to that.  Here is another nugget:
me: What's your favorite food?
her: Spinach and broccoli.
me: interesting...

We got back to camp around midnight... I was so so so so so tired.

But I had Bible Study at 6:45 the next morning and it was AWESOME. yaya. So refreshing.

There were some other hard/good times this week, but over all  would give it a check plus.  I am taking my in camp night off this week. whoop!

This song became such a blessing for me this week:

Falling on my knees in worship
Giving all I am to seek Your face
Lord all I am is Yours

My whole life I place in Your hands
God of mercy, humbled I bow down
In your presence at your thrown

I called, You answered
And You came to my rescue
And I want to be where You are

In my life be lifted high
In our world be lifted high
In our love be lifted high

(Hillsong United-- Came To My Rescue)

love love love 

Saturday, June 7

wow... week 1... there were definitely some highs and lows of the week...
I am a pretty scheduled person and my job is incredibly unscheduled... I find out what I am doing when I do it... hah.  I only had a couple break downs, though, and I know it will get better over the next few weeks... and then I will go back to the incredibly scheduled schedule of a counselor. 

The cutest little second grade boy came up to me during free time the other day and told me that he had found diamonds in a rock... and then we talked for about five minutes about how much those diamonds cost and how he was going to get them out of the rock... priceless. 

This week I have really been working on humility and servanthood... so many times just being reminded about how life is not about me... 

I'm giving up my pride for the promise of new life... 
To know the lasting joy even while sharing in Your pain...
I can see the Light that is coming for the heart that comes on... there will be an end to these troubles but until that day comes, still I will praise You, still I will praise You...

Eph. 1:18-- I pray that your hearts will be flooded with light so that you can understand the wonderful future to those He has called.

Actually, Eph. 1:15-23 is just amazing!!

and last, but def not least, we took some awesome pics... hahah