Friday, October 31
Thursday, October 23
Please promise not to judge me after you watch this.
On a different note, I have been so challenged the past couple days, and it's been awesome! My church did a panel on companies that give back, including TOMS, and that is where the Francis quote comes from...
I have been challenged to do more than I would normally do, to give more than I can give, and to trust God to be my Jehovah Jireh. I have been looking at other opportunities outside of camp next summer, which makes my stomach hurt and eyes well up, but I figure I might as well look!
I am also considering going to El Salvador in January... another thing I never thought I would do. Pine Cove has something called Commission Camping, which involves PC staff going to Central and South American countries and teaching them how to run camp! So they can in turn put on camp for their people after a few years of our help! sweet! Well, basically, besides the fact that I hate flying and all other public modes of transportation, and getting sick, and the fact that I know very little spanish, the only thing that freaks me out is being able to pay for the trip... The few people I have talked to have, of course, assured me that He will provide if He wants me to go... but sometimes I worry I miss out on His memos and He either wants me to do something or doesn't want me to do it, and I do the opposite. Which turns out lame.
VIDEO! 2 of the main guys are now my bosses!! love those guys...
Quotes from work:
7 year old drama queen: [wailing] MY PAPER CUTTTT IS SHOOWWWWINNNGGG
me: Now, Kaitlin, is that an appropriate way to tell me about your problem?
her: no... it just HURTTTSSS SOOO BADDDD
me: tell me like a big girl what you need me to do...
her: can I get a paper towel to mop up all the blood?
me: there is no blood...
Same girl tries to do a bad leg cartwheel and fails [she really is good when she applies herself]
She cries... wails... again.
me: Kaitlin, you're doing fine...
her: I can't do it!! IT'S SO HARD BEING ME!!
It always makes me feel accomplished when they get so upset about having to leave. they don't hate me!
And you know I work way too much with kids when I cringe every time a girl coughs nastily. Which was a lot today... I can feel the germs.
I found this today in 1st Corinthians:
It is LIVING BY GOD'S POWER.
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
where there is sadness, joy;
O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood as to understand;
to be loved as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive;
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.
[St. Francis of Assisi]
Tuesday, October 21
C. I've learned that regardless of how tough my life may seem, I've got it good. I have been so blessed. This past week was rough and weird, and through other people, He has reminded me how blessed I am. I have nothing to complain about.
D. I am memorizing 2 Peter 1. Here is the first part. I love it.
E. I am learning to find joy in the little things at work. If I don't, I just want to kill them all.
Me[to a 5 year old]: Sam, your turn! Is your full name Samuel?
Sam: No, my middle name is Samuel.
Me: oh, what's your first name, then?
Me[to middle school tumblers]: oh man this is my favorite song from HSM! And don't look at me like yall are too old to like HSM... It came out when I was a senior and I still love it!
Girl: wait... how old are you?
Me: yeah, I know
Girl: You look like you could be in 8th grade!!
Me: Really, 8th grade??
Girl: Yeah, you could so go to my school!
baha. There are so many more. I wish I had a piece of paper with me so I could write them all down.
F. One of my biggest fears is that I will stop growing. I am praying that my hunger for Christ will not be sustained. That would be the worst thing ever. I want to know Christ!
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me.
Break my heart for what breaks yours
Everything I am for your Kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth to eternity.
Monday, October 20
We then made the 3 hour drive to College Station to meet up with our Towers friends! Oh happy day! We of course rocked out to Hannah Montana, Wicked, Hairspray, and Phantom all the way there. Then stopped at Starbucks to try to recover from the long car rides and sick nasty fair sweat and dirt.
I had many much needed conversations... One of which with my dear friend, Katie. I love you, girl! Talking to you is always such an encouragement... you make those you come into contact with feel appreciated and loved. See you Friday!
For more pictures, click here and here.
Basically, moral of the story: I am blessed. I think I forget that way too often. I think I am entitled to certain things, when in reality, I am entitled to nothing. Which is a pretty sweet place to be in... Everything is a gift. Nothing is deserved. All by grace. That leaves me completely free to trust my Jesus.
Tuesday, October 14
what if you don't know which way is the right way?
what do you do then? do you sit and wait, knowing He will make His way clear?
or do you act, knowing that He is faithful and will be glorified in whatever decision you make?
I have never been so stuck before, in so many ways. I can do one thing, and be fine... I can do another thing...
and be fine. but I don't want to be fine. I want to be obedient.
I want to hear what He is telling me and do what He wants. but I can't hear what He is telling me.
and I don't know what He wants.
I feel useless, pointless, without a purpose. I'm struggling with trusting that He will reveal His plan when His time comes.
"Don't be troubled. You trust God, now trust in me...
I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life.
No one can come to the Father except through me."
He is the Way. I abide in Him, and He in me... When I abide, I am following the Way, because He is the Way.
When I realized this on Sunday, I was comforted. Still slightly freaking out. But comforted.
Those decisions I have to make do not hold any weight to following the Way.
That is my only purpose... to abide and glorify. Nothing else matters.
So while I don't know right now what decision to make, it doesn't matter.
As long as I am following the Way.
He will let me know when we get there.
Sunday, October 12
a. i think I just drank mold.
b. memorable quote:
during catch phrase--
me: "there are 31 of these..."
c. 3 tests.
4 day week, 3 day weekend.
c-stat, here I come!
Monday, October 6
The kids were out of control... because the sponsors were out of control. It's sad when 20-year-old college kids expect and enforce better discipline than the parents present. Slow songs at Club were talked and laughed through... The kids totally had control over the adults, which left the college staff in some awkward positions.
Some of the adults said some mean things, too! But it was so cool because we got to show these kids unconditional love and hopefully set an example for the leaders. We danced with them and played with them and imagined with them and were patient with them and worshiped with them. The leaders would start video taping everything when we would start doing cheers and dances and games with them... that was actually funny. slash awkward.
I have been really thinking about the difference between knowledge of Christ and a relationship with Christ, and I will post about that later... I have to go to work now!
Wednesday, October 1
BREATHE. Breathe in and Breathe deeply. Be PRESENT.
Do not be past. Do not be future. Be now.
On a crystal clear, breezy 70 degree day, roll down the windows and FEEL the wind against your skin.
Feel the warmth of the sun.
If you run, then allow those first few breaths on a cool Autumn day to FREEZE your lungs and do not just be alarmed, be ALIVE.
Get knee-deep in a novel and LOSE track of time.
If you bike, pedal HARD… and if you crash then crash well.
Feel the SATISFACTION of a job well done—
a paper well-written, a project thoroughly completed, a play well-performed.
If you must wipe the snot from your 3-year old’s nose, don’t be disgusted if the Kleenex didn’t catch it all…
because soon he’ll be wiping his own.
If you’ve recently experienced loss, then GRIEVE.
And Grieve well.
At the table with friends and family, LAUGH.
If you’re eating and laughing at the same time, then might as well laugh until you puke.
And if you eat, then SMELL.
The aromas are not impediments to your day.
Steak on the grill, coffee beans freshly ground, cookies in the oven.
And TASTE. Taste every ounce of flavor.
Taste every ounce of friendship. Taste every ounce of Life.
[Kyle Lake-- the end of the sermon he should have given the morning he died]