History will know who we are

well my blog is still weird... but we're working on that.

I have found the song I want played for my first dance at my wedding. I will keep it a secret until then... Mainly to avoid ridicule.


I am loving knowing how to get my computer to take a picture of the screen! Genius, I say! I also like having it on the "black and white" version, if you can't tell by the pics. Me and my brother freaked my mom out with it, once. haha! It's also fun to turn the screen lighting down all the way so they can't figure out why the computer is off...


I am excited slash nervous about the leadership conference this weekend. It's going to be so fun but I'm scared I am going to do something wrong.

I hate school. boo. Spring break soon! I walked the bear trail with a friend today... it was glorious. The weather is incredible!

I seriously need serious help with this capital punishment project. ha.

I now have 3 tutoring clients! whoop! 2 with latin! I don't remember my 6th grade latin teacher trying to make it easier or kid friendly. We just had to memorize everything, just like I would now. But kids these days... haha :)

²² The faithful love of the Lord never ends!
His mercies never cease.
²³ Great is his faithfulness;
his mercies begin afresh each morning.
²⁴ I say to myself, “The Lord is my inheritance;
therefore, I will hope in him!”

²⁵ The Lord is good to those who depend on him,
to those who search for him.
²⁶ So it is good to wait quietly
for salvation from the Lord.
[Lam. 3]

So I have these tabs up on my blog, now, right? But I don't know how to change them. hah. boo.

You are mine

Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you. I have called you by name; you are mine.
When you go through deep waters, I will be with you.
When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown.
When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up;
the flames will not consume you.
For I am the Lord, your God; the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.
Others were given in exchange for you.
I traded their lives for yours because you are precious to Me.
You are honored, and I love you.
You have chosen to know me, believe in me,
and understand that I alone am God. There is no other God--
there never has been, and there never will be.
From eternity to eternity, I am God.
No one can snatch anyone out of my hand.
No one can undo what I have done.
[Is. 43]

all i wanna do is be with you...

So I watched HSM3 for the first time today... I had already heard the soundtrack quite a bit from work, but I must say, the movie was just as good as I had hoped. I will now live vicariously through the soundtrack until I find my Troy Bolton. baha

This week was weird. I almost failed a forensic psych class! whoopee! mmm yes.
Kaitlyn is coming tomorrow morning... I'm so excited.
I need to find business professional attire to wear to a conference next weekend... let's be honest, I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO LOOK FOR. I was in Forever 21 the other day and felt so lost. so so lost. But I found the cutest pair of shoes I have ever seen. I want them. I've never understood why shoes are so expensive. Jeans, too... It's ridiculous.

I am so ready for this semester to be over. I feel weird.

I found encouragement from this song this week:

You raise me beyond the skies, into a city of eternal light
Looking down on the stars, I fly into heaven, caught up in your arms

I breath Your fragrance, taste Your goodness,
Crumble to pieces into Your love
In Your presence all my existence crumbles to pieces into Your love

I’m speechless, what can I say
Words become tears as You wipe them away
All my kisses and crowns at Your feet
Fire of heaven burn love over me

It’s such a beautiful story
I’m face to face with the King of Glory
You rescued someone unworthy, I know this is Love
[Crumble to Pieces-- Phil Wickham]

i'm not sure if i should post this. haha.

I'm alive!! I still feel sick every now and then, and take long naps during the day to ward off weird, feel like I'm drowning headaches, and walking to class makes me extremely out of breath... hah. But other than that, I feel much better than I did last week.
Tuesday through Thursday I did absolutely nothing besides lay in the middle of my living room floor and watch Friends, The Big Bang Theory, Pride and Prejudice, and Mamma Mia, and then of course Lost when it came on. I realized that every love song is so trivial after watching Pride and Prejudice. What the heck, just give me Darcy.

On Friday, I ventured out into the world. I took a shower first, which resulted in me laying on the couch after for 10 minutes because I almost passed out in the shower... Until then I had not stood for longer than 3 minutes. Then I walked 2 blocks to the StuFu building to pick up some paper work... oooh that was brave. I came back and fell asleep for an hour. haha! I felt like a grandma!

On Saturday, most of my family came to visit! yay! We went to Common Grounds for a Falling Whistles benefit, which I just had to sit inside CG for most of it bc I got so tired... Then we went to the Baylor/aTm mens basketball game, which, although it ended spendidly and I will never regret going to that game, resulted in the awful, I think I am drowning in my head, headache that did not go away until this morning. The energy at that game was freakin incredible. The last time aTm was at Baylor for basketball, they(the players) were terribly arrogant and a rivalry had already been instilled because a month before, we beat them on their court in the 5th overtime... Anyway, I remember leaving the game absolutely furious because of their disgusting attitudes... in fact, "Donald Sloan dunk" is a suggested search on google, so I guess people like to watch it... hah. uughhh I was so mad. People started throwing things at him. hahaha. So on Saturday, there was a little hatred left over, especially for Sloan, and so he was booed every.single.time he touched the ball. Now, I think booing is immature and stooping to their level, so I do not participate, but I still thought it was funny. He would touch the ball and they would boo... he would pass it soon after, and the booing would stop immediately. I just find it so weird that guys have this universal alarm to boo a specific guy every time... I don't think girls think of that... at least, I wouldn't have... It's not like they had a rally before, saying that is what they were going to do... they just did it... Oh and I wasn't one of the crowd members cussing or throwing things or even booing at either games, so... please don't give me a lecture on sportsmanship or class. Both teams could work on both. I honestly don't think I had the lung capacity for booing at that point in my healing process. I probably would have passed out.
Anyway, the game was glorious, and now we have another player to boo, because after chasing Jerrells around the court trying to foul him for the last 4 seconds of the game, he shoved him right when the buzzer went off, resulting in an explosion on both benches and a fight almost taking place. It was pretty lame but I guess aTm wanted to make sure the tension was still high for next year. Seriously, don't touch Curtis.

I am writing a paper on the liberal Christian's view of capital punishment, so if you have any good books about it or any good insight, please let me know!

I think the "25 Random Things" on facebook is so weird. haha. It's seriously taking over the world. And I think it's so funny when people use it to make themselves look good. As if writing about your high school accomplishments is really making you look good. And I've read some of them, but honestly, I think people just want to write about themselves more than actually have anyone read them. Now, I filled it out, it's true. I'm not going to try to explain the conflicts that go through my brain every day. But I also think I just made myself look like a freak. haha. But if you really did want to know, I have in fact "sung and spoke in front of hundreds of people since I was 5... and I played softball for my high school... and I won pottery and quilting awards in elementary school..." yes yes, I excel as a person. Thank you, facebook, for allowing me to share this with the world. And I didn't even write those on my 25 things, you blog readers got special insight, right there...

Speaking of facebook, it's boring and I deactivated my account. Which was really lame timing when I got the flu for a week right after, and the only thing my mom allowed me to touch was my computer, blanket, pillow, and phone. boo germs.

I think that people decided dark chocolate was good for you because they just wanted an excuse to eat chocolate. And dark chocolate is a lame excuse for chocolate, ps. Oh and drinking milk is unnatural. I will stand by that statement. People say I am an opinionated person... I'm not sure how I feel about that...

Amos 5:15

you know how i said that i thought i was getting sick on the last blog title...

well. I have the flu. And I feel AWESOME. This is the first time I've been able to sit up for longer than 3 minutes. I haven't had a fever over 101 in a long time, and I must say, the fever breaking is almost as unpleasant as the fever itself.

I am missing out on so much stufu fun, I'm so bummed.

But my mom is here, making me food. I'm praying Rach doesn't get it...

I think I'm getting sick.

Short and sweet:

* Today, a miracle took place. The Dean of the CASA let me switch greek professors... something he even told me would not be possible. I don't really know what happened. He didn't even have my name right. He kept calling me Heather... haha. But for some reason, he decided to go against everything he has ever done as dean, and let me switch. I had a dance party.

* I am officially old. I just got an email saying to order my senior ring. At first, I thought it didn't mean me... hah. But I looked at my transcript, and, sure enough, I have more than enough hours. I'm sorry, when did I turn into an old person? Ew I'm so freaked out right now. I'm not even 20.5 yet. haha.

* Two tests tomorrow. ew.

* They showed my hotel video to all of student foundation on sunday at our meeting. oh my gosh.

* No more facebook for a while.

* Oh and I'm going back to camp. baha.

peace.

ps, Slumdog Millionaire soundtrack= SO worth ten dollars... buy it!

close your eyes.clear your heart.cut the cord.

So when I find a song I like, I listen to it on repeat until I find another one... Right now, that song is Human by The Killers... I have absolutely no idea what it means, but I like it. If I owned You Found Me, by the Fray, that would be the new song. However, I only have a video with it on it to a preview of Lost... I don't think I explained that properly. Oh well.
Anyway, Basically the only 3 songs I have listened to on my computer for the past couple weeks are Human, My Life Would Suck Without You, and Feel That Fire by Dierks. I guess I don't really get sick of songs that I choose to listen to... which is funny bc I get really sick of songs that are overplayed on the radio. I'm convinced the most overplayed song in the country genre is Cowgirls Don't Cry by Brooks and Dunn, followed closely by Teardrops On My Guitar by Taylor Swift. The most overplayed song in the Christian genre is I Can Only Imagine...

I just filled out a Random 25 Things thing on Facebook... and so now all these random things are flashing through my brain... I hate taking showers. And brushing my teeth. And I get really upset when I have to stop what I'm doing to go to the bathroom. Sometimes I get to the point where I am about to pee my pants because I want to finish what I am doing first. I love sweeping... I hate folding clothes... I won't even turn them right side out most of the time. I love the fact that hotel doors lock behind me. In fact, I love the smell of hotels... and the feeling of hotels. I don't sleep with a top sheet... just a bottom sheet and a blanket... Because when I do sleep with a top sheet, I just kick it to the end of the bed. Answering the phone in a professional way gives me chills, I get so excited.

I need to do homework.

If you need wisdom, ask our generous God, and He will give it to you. He will not rebuke you for asking. But when you ask Him, be sure that your faith is in God alone...

Whatever is good and perfect comes from God our Father, who created all the lights in the Heavens. He never changes or casts a shifting shadow. He chose to give birth to us by giving us His true word. And we, out of all creation, became His prized possession.
[James 1]

PS Human has come on 5 times since I have been writing this... :) Oh and I just looked up the song to try to figure out what it means, and I like it even more now. whoop.

we have boys here... a few...

Here is a pic from the plane on Monday... it was nice once we got above the fog...
Yesterday and today have been absolutely gorgeous days... It's so funny that classes were canceled on Wednesday due to ice.
I'm pretty sure I'm all baylored out at this point... Thursday was the only day last week I wasn't talking about Baylor to the masses...
On Friday, I gave a tour to middle schoolers... Too cool, gangsta middle schoolers. There were about 55 of them, so a friend and I split the group in half and each took a group. First of all, middle schoolers don't care about Judge Baylor and Pat Neff... They care about boys. Most of the kids there were girls... oh my gosh. And in middle school, you still have that level of boldness that you never regain after you hit 9th grade because you have no idea what it means to be socially appropriate and you are at the top of your game in 8th grade! Below are a few samples of our conversations:
Them: Where are all the people?
Me: In class...
Them: Are we going to see any of them?
Me: yes, they will be getting out when we are walking around...
Them: Are there boys?
Me: Yes, we have boys here... The ratio is not in your favor, though.
Them: Are they cute?
Me: Some of them...
Them: Will we see any basketball players?
Me: I don't know, maybe...
Them: Are there any crazy parties here?
Me: You can find just about anything if you look hard enough...
Them: Well, are they good?
Me: I've not really been to any crazy parties, so I don't know...
Them: How are the clubs?
Me: And moving on...

[The boys are let loose... aka between classes]
Them: OMG BOYYYSSS
They proceed to say heeyyy to EVERY_SINGLE_GUY who passes us... I was laughing so so so hard. They had no idea how ridiculous they looked... and how old I felt... hah.

Them: Why can't we see any of the basketball players?
Me: They aren't on display!
Them: Well, are they cute?
Me: Some of them...

We get to the bears, and they FREAK OUT... They were so excited...
Them: Do they bite?
Me: They are bears... so I would think so.
As excited as they were, the excitement level sky-rocketed when I informed them that we were going to be eating at Penland, the largest freshman guys residential hall... oh screams of joy.

It was the most hilarious tour I have ever given.
Yesterday was Winter Premiere, which was ironic bc it was a beautiful spring day... So more tours, but with people who were actually interested in going to Baylor. I had one group who was seriously attacking me for saying that Baylor was unashamedly Christian and that you have to take two Christian courses and chapel to graduate. It was odd. One of the guys in StuFu was trying to get his group to open up, so when they got to Pat Neff and he was telling them about the 23.5 carat gold top, they didn't really react to him asking about it's blinding glare, so he said, "it's so bright because God's glory is around the top of it..." hahaha I love Baylor!

I saw Slumdog Millionaire on Friday night. Great, great movie. Go see it. There is this one part that was a complete slap in the face to Americans. Like woah. Just go see it.

First greek test this week. dangit. ugh. I hate everything about Greek. hah. I've never had a class that has the potential of making me feel physically sick when I think about it.

Since it is such a beautiful day, I am going to go outside and read and journal and study until the SUPPPERRRRBOWLLL PARTAYYY tonight! whoop! It's my favorite holiday. Although the commercialism of it is absolutely disgusting and so American and we should be ashamed of ourselves. So now at this point I am reevaluating my favor of it... I like the competativeness... and the community that takes place at the parties... But what would America be without trying to "save the world" and spending billions of dollars on a night of football at the same time? Oh, I know, the economy has affected the superbowl too... The lowest price of tickets is now $500 instead of $700... Whatever, I don't even know what to say about that. I generally pick who I want to win based on their helmets... Unless they are the Patriots... I always want them to win. Don't ask me why, I don't remember... I chose them in high school and just stuck with it. So this year, I guess I want the Steelers to win. Let's be honest, I don't care about professional football... I come from a MLB family... the World Series is much easier to choose for.

peace. love. sic em.